My Crush

As I rewind back to those wonderful days of my college life I usually get stuck there, with so many beautiful moments aroused in me. The unforgettable one is about my CRUSH.Noticing our first crush is an exciting time in life because we are beginning to understand how it feels, to like another person. When we see our crush, a part of us might feel embarrassed and we might want to run away and hide. Another part of us might imagine our crush noticing us and sharing the same feelings.

Can we choose our crush?? They just sneak up on us and — wow — who was that? Crush can be a classmate, a neighbor, our best friend’s friend, an older kid, a friend of our brother or sister, a sister or brother of a friend, or a teacher at our school or may be someone at our office. Crushes are new and exciting, so enjoy them while they last. Someday, we all might be telling our own kids about our first crush! Let me share a beautiful feeling of my life which can never slip off my mind in a hurry.
I completed my engineering a long time back but it always feels like yesterday.

DEC 2004, I was in my seventh semester, masti was at its peak and I was going through the best phase of my life. We had a campus recruit in 6th SEM, luckily I got through and it meant I could enjoy the remaining days of college at the best. During that time some special friends walked into my life, some came for a season and some for lifetime. When I am talk of this phase in my life it would be wrong if I don't talk about my special friend Pranata. I have spoken about the others in Summne Shenga section.
Pranata – A very cute adorable darling friend of mine, she is a caring person and she believes in helping others even when she is in trouble. She's been a good friend, lifting my spirits in times when I needed consolation which has helped me to be what I am today ;). She has been a great support in my life and she is a tender hearted person who is always there to hear me. I got to know her late into my life but she has been a great friend. Pranata used to stay very near to my room with her aunty and a roommate (Chandana) who was a junior to us. I and Pranata used to study together for internals and semester exams. She was too intelligent and used to help me a lot in my studies.
It was a cool breezy evening in Dec and my friends might know the chillness of BGM in that season. I was in Pranata`s room sitting on her roomie’s (Chandana) PC listening to songs, At this moment Chandana walked into the room accompanied by 2 of her friends. She introduced me to the new faces and I went out to the hall so that her friends can feel comfortable. [Actually I was feeling uncomfortable with so many girls in that room] Pranata walked out to accompany me and we were watching a TV show which was really boring. I was just looking around and suddenly my eyes stopped at this girl to whom I was introduced some moments back. Uff she was so cute and innocent. Her silky hair was so shiny and beautiful like the moon light on a lake. The bindi on her face was showing her tradition and she was from a well cultured family. She didn’t have any ornaments but was looking gorgeous. She was fair and the yellow salwar with a white dupatta was adorning her gracefully. Her smile was so intoxicative that I just got lost into a world of my own. At that moment she was looked the most beautiful woman on the earth. I was just clean bowled and was very eager to know more about her. Suddenly in that excitement I just was not able to recall her name. Can you all believe that I forget her name? Oh God that moment I just felt like I am sitting on the hot seat in KBC and forgot the answer for the final question of 2 crores. Indeed it was a great moment. I didn’t wanted to ask Pranata as I knew she gonna pull my leg. I got a call and had to leave at that moment.
I had some work and I totally forgot about that moment to tell or discuss with anyone after that. One day when I was with Pranata I just asked her about those girls and she didn’t understand about whom I was speaking. Then she called Chandana, who too didn’t get about whom I was enquiring. Then I asked her describing the innocent cute girl with that yellow salwar and silky hair. The manner in which I asked them raised questions in their mind and I realized that I was going to have a very difficult time ahead. I am a very shy person who never pulls anyone’s leg or irritates but people aren’t the same all around. What you say guys?? Sometimes being so silent and soft turns to be your own enemy. You might or might not want to tell other people who your crush is. It can be fun to talk with friends about it, but sometimes friends tease you like hell. Getting teased is never fun, and I was sure that I would be getting a good taste in coming days.
From that day whenever I used to pull Pranata or Chandana`s leg they used to tease me with her name. This was just the beginning of the story. I didn’t see her again for long time. she was my junior but I didn't see her for next 2 months. In my final semester second internals time I and Pranata were studying in her room. We both had good score in first internal, we did not have much pressure so were just doing lots of fun and a little study. Chandana came with a book in her hand to ask a doubt from her room. Pranata was clever enough to put it on my head. She had a doubt on computer organization subject which I had never read in my life. Pranata always has this quality of pushing her head ache to me (Just kidding)
I just glanced through the book and felt it wasn’t too tough a topic to explain. Then I asked Chandana to sit so that I could explain it to her. Then she told that she has a friend in her room and I should be explaining both of them. Without thinking much I got up and went to her room. Now what would have happened next I shall not explain as anyways you all might have guessed it right? Her friend who was in Chandana room was none other then my Crush. My heart was racing whenever she looked at me. Nothing came out right when she was listening and I was speechless. There were butterflies in my stomach and I was sweating in my palms and face turned red. She was looking as pretty as a field of spring flowers. All of sudden my eyes fell on those mesmerizing eyes which led to a chemical reaction between my heart and brain. Oh god she was so lovely with those deep beautiful eyes which seemed to be pacific blue in which I was waiting for years to get drowned. When I was near her my heart was beating aloud such that I wasn’t able to hear myself. I have never been so nervous, not even while writing my CAT exam. I just don't know what I stammered sitting in front of her. I was so shy that I even couldn’t lift my face to see her. It was one of those moments in my life which can’t erase. As soon as I completed my lecture I ran out of the room and drank 2 glass of water. It was really good fun for Pranata and Chandana who knew what was happening to me.

Later …. What happened later?? Who actually is the girl? Is she still in my life? Did I talk to her and tell my feelings? Did she talk to me? Or was it like any other crush which was forgotten after ENGG?? I shall update you all with the answers in my next blog article.

Crushes are addictive - they make life exciting, and give you hope and focus. This is why we let ourselves make the same mistakes over and over again, it is the thrill of the chase, except you are being more of a loiter!